Dry Mouth (Original Song)

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Here’s a song I wrote a couple of weeks ago about not being able to write songs:

My voice had some trouble coming out (you should have heard me warming up… a disaster! hehe) and my fingers had forgotten how to dance, but in my opinion, this is still pretty decent. Especially with the huge lack of practice + unhealthy amount of caffeine in my body!

I will be recording a better video next week, but for now that’ll be it! I’ve just been dying to share it, and after those long four days of break, I was bursting to share it.

The ending still needs some work. Which, of course, you can’t really tell since I mess it up in this video, haha! But overall, I think this is a really good song. I love the melody and how the chorus picks up.

I think it accurately describes my frustration and this longing… I just want to create but, sometimes it just won’t happen, and it kills me because this is how I breathe. And like I have mentioned, I do have loads of song ideas, drafts and things to say; but it won’t come out.

And I think it is funny how this song literally dropped out of my mouth while I was crying about not being able to finish the others. It’s almost the exact same story as when I wrote Dead Pen a couple of years back!

Round in circles…

Anyways, I don’t have time to chat right now! I must work on my Italian now and then finish working on special presents for E!

Here are the words that did come out:

It’s not that I don’t have anything to say
It’s just that my words have left me
It’s not that my heart isn’t broken
It’s just that my mouth is dry

I’ve been waiting for so long
For the words to fall right out
But my guts refuse to bleed
So I’ll just have to wait here

I hear my voice but I don’t know who she is
I write down words but they mean nothing to me
I stab my own heart but the blood it won’t come out
It’s just like my soul is dry

I’ve been waiting for so long
For my hands to dance freely
My fingers refuse to bleed
So I’ll just have to wait…

I’ll wait forever if I have to
It’s nothing without me, I’m nothing without this
I’ll wait…
I just don’t wanna fade..

I’ve been waiting for so long
For my voice to burst right out
But my heart it just won’t show
So I’ll just have to wait.

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I broke my heart again

But this is not the end

I know I will do it again

Today is another chance to hurt myself again

In new ways, old ways, always

Take me away from me, please

(Don’t) Forget, original song

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Let me forget everything

I don’t want to remember, no

I just want to let it go

I don’t want to ever face any of it again

Let me forget everything

Oh, please don’t let me forget

Please, don’t let me forget this

Please, don’t let me forget me

Please, don’t let the memories fade

I know that my heart can’t handle it

It might kill me

I know that my heart can’t handle this reality

Let me forget everything

Oh please don’t let me forget

Please, don’t let me forget me

Let me forget everything else

Please don’t let the memories fade

Oh, it’s already too late…

Glad to finally share another original! I still have eight other drafts to work on!

I’m really happy with how it came out. But I’m just getting a little impatient with myself, when it comes to reaching a next level of songwriting!

Yet another relatable song, though; am I right? Haha

Thanks for your time!

Until next post, remember a little neck massage goes a long way! โค

A Ticking Cage (original song)

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Here’s that song I wrote the other day. Once again, it’s short but I like it! I only wish I had been able to record a better take, but I really wanted to post it today, so, here goes…

It’s about wasting your time and being fully aware of it. You know, sometimes you just can’t stop doing nothing even though you know you’ve got other REAL stuff to do…

Here are the lyrics:

I’m sitting here I’ve got nothing to do
I’m sitting here I’ve got nothing to do
I’m sitting here I’ve got loads of things to do
I’m sitting here I’m just wasting my time

Time that I know I should spend wisely
Time is a bastard it won’t wait for me
Time that I know that I don’t have
But I never learn

I’m sitting here just playing the same tune
I’m sitting here I’ve got nothing to do
I’m sitting here I’m not alive anymore
What time is it? Never mind, I don’t care..

Maybe it’s time to learn from your mistakes!
Will I ever learn?

Well……

No!

And well, actually, I am learning. The hard way! Lolzor

Just one word on the title though. Where it comes from:

  1. The four power chords used form a sort of cage which the song is trapped in
  2. That slippery slope that are distractions and over-chill. Sometimes it’s like being in a cage and unable to escape as your time just runs away from you.

Until next post, just go for it! โค

What Are You Without Me? (Original song)

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I’m so happy to finally be able to post something again in that category! It’s nothing too wow but here’s an original song that I wrote earlier this month. It’s short but I like it that way. Hear me struggle on the guitar:

I literally wrote it in under two minutes while I was on an idea spree! Which explains a lot, I guess.. Ha ha!

If I’m being honest, it’s about how sometimes, via social medias, I check on people who are not part of my life anymore. Just to see how they’re doing, what are they doing now but, honestly, more to see if my leaving their life has caused an impossible-to-fill void somewhere. I’m exaggerating, of course. But I think that we all have those little intrusive thoughts sometimes.

Are they happier without me? Do they miss me? What has my absence changed for them?

I personally know that, for some people that left, it does feel that way. They do leave a void. Which you can’t feel but you don’t to anyways so it’s fine. But for those I’m singing about, it doesn’t. I don’t know if you heard but I don’t miss them. Ha ha!

Sometimes I simply wonder if being without me is hard for them. Because they were such dicks to me and I kept giving my best till it all collapsed. I’d feel good knowing that they do miss me and have yet to find someone to care about them the way I did. But also, I don’t care.

Anyways. Fun song! Haha

What are you without me?

I need to know you’re doing worse

I need to prove to me my own worth

I need to know you’re not better off

I know it’s selfish

But you were such a bitch

I known it’s in the past

But my heart’s still in a cast

So, tell me you miss me

Show me you need me

Cos I don’t

But if you do, then I won’t

Tell you I miss you

Tell you that I need you

Cause I don’t!

To My Butterfly (original song)

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A song that I wrote last year for my best friend, Lilly! โค

This is a very poor recording, I know. But really the best I manage to get out of me this week. I’ve been feeling really tired this week which made everything a bit harder to do! I really wanted it out before next week, and she was impatiently waiting for it, so here it is! I’m pretty sure I’ll upload a better version of it in maybe one or two months once I get better at guitar and singing! ๐Ÿ˜‰

You can find the lyrics down below:

It took me an hour, now it’s on fire!

Something went wrong with the song…

I wanted you to see what I get to see

When you’re here with me,

But my pen stood up against me,

It knows how to torture me.

It took me an hour, now I’m on fire,

Throwing everything away,

Breaking every line I say.

All I wanted to say was that

You’ve got to stray miles away from your head

So you don’t end up like me

With worms crawling behind my eyes,

Inside my mind,

From a bird that I’ve birthed.

Because you deserve much more

Than a street full of broken doors.

It took me an hour, everything’s on fire.

But at least it’s been spoken now.

At least it’s been spoken now…

I don’t want your hands to fade

Like the friends inside my head….

Oh, why?!

I hope, friend,

Your hands won’t fade;

Don’t let me fade.

I hope, friend,

Your wings won’t fade;

Don’t ever fade.

I hope you smile.

Breathe the light in,

Spit a lightning.

I hope you fly.

Don’t touch the sky,

Don’t be their lie.

Don’t die my butterfly!

There you go! That’s it for this song. Not much to add.

Spread love.

Dead Pen (original song)

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It’s been one month since I last uploaded something on my YouTube channel and well, I really felt I had to do something about it TODAY. So, there you go:

Picked this one out of the others because, in all honesty, it was the only one worth being called a ‘song’! And, I relate so much to it at the moment! I can’t write shit. But I’m on my way to squeeze it out of me! ๐Ÿ˜‰

I remember the day I wrote it. I was at my sister’s. Woke up at around 10:30AM. She was already out for work. I got up grabbed some fruits, fed the cats while watching cartoons. Then I picked up Revenge and sat on the bench with the intention of working on a song I crafted the day before. And I was sooo desperate as nothing was working. I tried working on different unfinished songs and it just wouldn’t come out. And I think I was also under the pressure(self-inflicted, of course) of writing a song for the birthday of my best friendย which I did write eventually, and by “accident” too (and which I shall record once I manage to record it… hopefully, in less than a month!). Anyways, I got tired so I put everything away and just strummed my frustration away and BAM, this song came out of my mouth without a warning. Alright, that was a pretty useless flash-back paragraph but yeah, that’s how it happened. ๐Ÿ˜›

I was busy working on drawings and paintings this week for the upcoming birthdays of my family! So, I was not just sleeping my days away or whatnot. Was busy sacrificing time and parts of me to create a physical manifestation of the love I have for other beings than myself.

Hope it reached you somehow and meant something! ๐Ÿ˜€

It feels good to finally have something posted on my virtual universes. Ha ha!