Blue & green||| You & me


Growing up on such a blessed land was paradise.

Even though I spent most of my youth longing for the day I’d leave this place, I’ve always loved everything about it (although the sun isn’t exactly my best friend). Now that I’ve finally gotten out and seen a bit more of the world, I truly see how beautiful my home is and precious. And it makes me happy beyond words Exif_JPEG_420to be able to come back once more and get to enjoy those familiar places.

I’ve always been amazed by Nature and its stubbornness and strength and oh so breathtaking beauty. And since I live in a small town, in the south of the island, I’ve always been able to enjoy both the sea and the forests a lot.

They’ve always been my familiar faces in the world, if that makes any sense.

I open the window in my room and I can see the mountains, then I go in the kitchen and from there I can see the sea. The sounds of the ocean have always carried me to sleep. Nature is not a stranger to me and seeing even the tiniest tree somewhere is enough to make me feel more or less connected to the place I’m in. I’ve always felt that connection to it and it’s always felt like that reassuring force I could always turn to, I guess that’s why we call it “Mother Nature”.

img_20161227_150826When I got in highschool, and the storm inside started blooming, five years ago(??), I developed a stronger need for the sea. And I used to walk there as often as I could after school with mom and my dog and my little brother. It calmed me down to see the waves from up close and smell the fresh air.img_20161220_185500

But it did, and still does, that strange thing to me which I have yet found the right words to explain. I could sit there for hours and just stare. It feels like I’m hypnotized sometimes. And I think it’s just like this bigger Love also. It feels really good and it eases the storm in me.

This is only the second time I’m coming back home since I left two years ago, but the first thing I always do before I go out of town to meet people or do anything is take a walk to the sea. And then, we go there almost every single day. It heals everyone and helps with all the useless tension; it fills me with love and happiness, and the sweetest drops of sadness.20170716_175244

Today I was soooooo lucky that my family and I got to go the forest (I found a nice little panorama online for you, just click right here! πŸ˜‰ ) AND then to the sea once more!! I was so happy!

We went in my brother’s dad’s pickup truck. My sister and her son were sitting inside while mom, Gaby and I were sitting in the back with his dog and got to enjoy the sight as we drove up the gravel roads. It’s just the best feeling to be sitting in the open like that! And the lil’ doggy was just so happy to stand and watch the trees go by with us.

It was sooo sooooooo pretty and then the sea was just ——- I made a little video montage from a few clips I filmed over these past few days because I can’t get them uploaded on Instagram for some reason and it’s just so pretty I need to SHARE

(Forgive the music that might actually be too loud; there were just people talking on most of the videos and nobody wants to hear that… )

A wonderful sight that always leaves me in awe.

There’s this connection and it’s just beautiful. Sadly, I’m all out of time for that post so I’m gonna have to cut the thinking and typing here.

Until next post, don’t forget to look around and let love in, no matter how bad a mood you’re suffocating with. ❀

 

 

Just a little bonus of my brother being a cutie in the woods:

 

Untitled acrylic on paper, 2.16.17


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So, I kind of (totally) ruined the face on my portrait and Β now I can’t bring myself to go back to working on it just yet. I had two pretty shitty days. Not completely shitty. Rather bittersweet but really tough on that bitter part. The taste still haunts the back of my mouth.

Anyways, so I painted this today instead of working on the portrait. I’m like really happy with how it turned out. All the colors put together and the texture and wow. Shame though that my pictures don’t really let it shine through. However, I have noticed that the pictures that I take on my phone do look a little better while I’m on my computer so I actually have a small hope now that you might see it in a slightly better quality that I do. I can NOT see the turquoise at the bottom of the painting on my phone, it’s like dark blue and on the computer is better. So yeah. Still frustrated though. Ha ha!16808739_1361814600552612_2145723990_n

I didn’t give this painting a name. It just doesn’t have one. It’s filled with sadness, hope and dreams is all I can say. I painted it while listening to a playlist of Wet’s songs on youtube. I just love their music and sometimes it’s really all I need to listen to.

I still haven’t completely lost my mind. But I hardly see myself surviving another month without a guitar in my bed. It’s just so hard, you know. I mean, I already don’t have a cat or a dog or anything, which is bad enough considering I grew up with pets and it’s such an empty life without at least one around. But no guitar just makes this whole thing more pointless. I can feel all my energy just being drained from my body and mind and pretty soon I’ll be a more literal mess.

I also am putting a lot of pressure on myself because this is important and it feels like it’s been three years since I last played. I have barely a one-year experience as left-handed player and it can just fade so fast in such short time. I’m gonna go crazy over guitar practice when I buy a new one because I’m just crazy about this whole thing and I’ve been slacking off so much ever since I was born and I gotta work or I’ll never get anywhere I’d like to. This is horrible.

Good things are coming my way in a little less than two weeks. There’s the rock show, the singing lessons, going to Paris to meet KimΒ and just, you know, still breathing! But right now, it just weighs on me a lot and it’s fucking hard. I’m still pushing through which is great, I guess. Not giving up, that’s good. But you know, I won’t lie. It’s really hard on me. And the mess I made with my portrait just kicked me down too. I’m in a real fragile place right now which makes me even more sensitive than usual.

I keep trying to be positive to make things fall into place thanks to the power of a positive mind, you know. But I’m like, on the floor right now and can’t get that frown off my face. I really hope I can manage to buy that guitar next month.

Alright, this post is going nowhere. So I’ll just end it here. If I keep writing, it’ll just be me saying on and on how tired I am and how my mind is cracking and I NEED GUITARASDFGHJKL

Fruits & vegetables ❀

Roots!


Lilly and I got to see Line again today, after many years! Mom and Gaby tagged along as she drove us to the Cap MΓ©chant. In all our happiness, we forgot to take a picture with her! But, I can assure you that she is still as pretty and awesome as she’s always been.

She’s such a lovely human and we were really happy to see her again. We went to school with her when we were twelve and she was also in high school with me. It had been two years since I last saw her!! It felt amazing to see her. She’s still the same but in the loveliest way. We had a nice time talking about plans and you know, life. Mom talked a lot! Ha ha

I don’t really have much to say and I’m really tired too, so I’m not gonna spend too much time typing. I’m just going to share some pictures! I forgot my phone somehow so I had to use mom’s to take pics and it seems they’re all so tiny Idek why! x)Β It’s a little sad that we forgot to take a pick with Line but at least I got some with Lilly now!

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I love her so much! We’ve been friends for over ten years now and you know, she’s that one friend that’ll always be around. She’ll be at some of my shows, at my weddings, she’ll play with my babies; she’ll always be there some way somehow! We’ve had ups and downs but never strayed. And I’m so glad we have each other because I’m not sure if I’ll ever find another someone that knows me like that and gets me like that!

Alright, I see you coming, of course I took pictures of the sea! πŸ˜› But let me just warn you, if you ever come to Reunion Island, down the south to either the Puit Arabe, Puit des Anglais or Puit des FranΓ§ais, there might come around an annoying old lady. She’s been there for as long as I can remember but thank God, she’s cooled down a bit over the years. She will come to you and she will preach to you and talk really fast about whatnots and whatevers and you’ll hear the Devil’s name more than often in her endless speech. I wouldn’t advise you talk to her because there really isn’t much use. She followed us around today and then we saw her do the same thing with a family of German tourists who never knew what hit them. She used to be violent now and then but lately she only talks so it’s okay I guess. x) It’s not scary just rather annoying. Other than that, these are really nice places to be at! πŸ˜‰ Ha ha Just, no eye contact with the old lady.

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There you go! It was soooooo pretty! ❀ Sorry the pictures are so tiny, that’s just what mom’s phone does! x)

Cheers! Don’t forget to look around and cherish Mother Nature’s gifts from the smallest pebble to those huge floating pieces of rock or whatever it is! πŸ˜€

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A colorful algae painting


 

Alright, I’ve finally created a full thing! It’s been a while! x) It’s a really tiny one, but it’s still something.

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It’s acrylics on cold pressed watercolor paper(10,5 x 15,5cm or 4 1/8″ x 6 1/8″ if you’re weird). I know, I know, OUTRAGEOUS to use acrylics on watercolor paper πŸ˜› It originated from one of my clumsy moves. I dropped some paint on it and decided I would wipe my brushes on this page every time I’d need to. And eventually it’s started to look like something so I structured it a bit! Quite happy about it! πŸ™‚

I’m also working on another acrylic painting on an a4 canvas sheet. Still ocean themed. And also attempting a portrait of my little brother(which for now looks rather scary, I swear). And as for music related news, well… I don’t think I’m going to produce another song anytime soon. I don’t seem to be making any progress at all. It’s also rather hot in my room lately and that takes away all my strength and makes me really lazy. I feel really bad about it and I’m going to get myself right back on track. Get this self-motivation and some discipline back in my life. But really, I’m not really good at dealing with hot weather despite my being from Reunion Island! Haha. Need to try harder and remember that it’s all in my hands.

See you in the next post(i.e. in approximately fifty years from now πŸ˜‰ )!

Take care and don’t forget how to forgive and love! ❀